The two parts of my life that suck right now:
1. I am sending out résumés like mad and still have no job.
2. After a nice stint of around eight years free of them, I started have panic attacks again about a week ago. I've had two now, and I hate them. They're awful in their moment, but mostly I hate them because they're a sign that I'm cracking up and they make me feel like a wus that can't handle life. Luckily I have a mostly-full bottle of anti-anxiety sedatives that the good doctor prescribed for me last fall. I used only one pill the week of my comps, but I'm glad I kept the rest in the drawer.
Some other parts of my life that rock right now:
1. My husband (this is always, not just right now).
2. After an icky stint of writer's block, I've broken free and am writing again. A dear editor friend sent me a wonderful exercise for sketching a novel. It's proven useful. So, I'm writing that novel I've been joking about for a while, the one I swore I'd never really write. It's taking shape and my excitement about it is super-nerdy, even for me. I'm planning a couple of other novels when this one gets going. I still have to flesh out the plan for that non-fiction book, but it's finally coming together. Most importantly at present, my research proposals have moved beyond "ugly mess" to "workable".
3. The data collection stage of the current research project is up and running. I love my data.
4. I think I'm on track for my big intimidating scholarship/grant application. God bless the offices at CU that still help alums.
5. The seeds I planted ten days ago have finally sprouted.
So, I'm hopelessly unemployed, but I'm keeping busy.
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Hey would you send me the exercise for sketching a novel. I've been thinking about working on one this summer so my brain doesn't atrophy..but am having a tough time writing in a non analytical graduate school way. I'd appreciate it.
PS sorry about the panic attacks..that really suck.
Go Lola, go Lola! My only question is, will I understand your novel when it's published? You're awfully deep and I don't read the Espanol. That's two against me already and I haven't even seen the cover...Good luck!
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